Frustration And Heartbroken

What would u do, IF u are soooo damn mad at one person, but then u HAVE TO hold back ur feeling. But then..its SLOWLY EATS u from inside. Pressuring you 24/7. What would u do IF u're in my shoes?

Di luah mati mak, di telan mati bapak situation - It's so damn irritating! I HATE HER... i really, really, REALLY HATE her. But what more can i do when i CANNOT EXPRESS my feeling...

Mcm if kau express...it will make u appear like kau being rude. Zie taw sure uols will advise Zie saying "Luahkan aje..be true n honest about your feeling..bla bla bla..". I don't want to picture any situation here.

Just enough for me saying diluah mati mak, di telan mak bapak. Zie have to jaga byk giler hati, Zie had been FORCE to ignored my own feeling..ONLY for the sake of HER! Frankly speaking.. its hurt me so much because im the one who planned it first. and now everything when up side down.

Damn hurting me from the inside. When you try to speak it out loud... kau akan di chop no manner. Kau akan di label RUDE GIRL. kau akan di chop TAK RETI nak jg hati org. Habis...hati Zie ni ade yg nk peduli nk jaga?

Zie nangis² bcoz of this ...ade nk felt guilty? ade nk try to think "oh ok..she's the one yg plan it 1st. aku kena mengalah." ada nk pkir gitu? Tak de kan? Bersuara ckit..dia melenting. Bersuara sikit, kau masam muka.

Bersuara ckit, akan say zie tak being consider. hey common lah perempuan, byk dah zie mengalah. Jgn sampai aku mengalah n walk off. coz if it ever happen...sume org akan menyesal.

I am sick n tired of this. Over 1 year plus i had planned everything. but now someone suddenly jump in between the line n mess up EVERYTHING. When i mentioned everything...its really EVERYTHING.

Susah nk puaskan hati org and mengalah. Di bagi betis, mintak paha. susah²...ambik lah kau semua. IM OUT OF IT. Puas hati?!




Haa gnie lah Zie skrg. Ada yg nak peduli what i felt inside? TAK ADA PUNYA. Jiwa kacau mode is ON. dah dah...main batu seremban lg best dr layan jiwa kacau. titik.














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